All done, now what....

I graduated on May 17th. Finally, after 12 years in school I have an Associates in Applied Science LOL. But at least it ends with an RN license.  I didn't even think about blogging during this last semester.  First it was about focus on passing each test.  Then it was about focusing on the final. Then it was over and still seems surreal like I am not done.  I have to take boards in the next couple of weeks but I will have a review that should prepare me to pass the first time. I just can't wait until I have nothing to worry or stress about except for work and kids.  During these past couple of weeks I did manage to interview and receive 3 job offers from Hendrick Medical Center. One job in Skilled Nursing, One job in Cardiac, and One job in Medsurg.  I took the Cardiac job. For some reason I have done well on cardiac tests and it really interests me.  I feel like it would be a good fit.  If not, it is a great experience. I am excited but nervous at the same time.  A lot different then sending a purchase order to the wrong vendor.  It's dealing with people's health, lives, and their family's life.  Oooooh boy. God grant me the courage!

Talk about a close call...

Only I would be the only one to possibly make Nursing school harder than it is.  So the last unit test we had I needed a 90 in order to make a 85 on the Final and pass.  Well I got a 76 instead of a 90.   Of course when I saw a 76 on my MS/Int test it felt like I made a 20 when I needed a 70.  At that point I said "Evie you might as well call it a day and start on plan B".  So I went through my grieving process and still studied for the final knowing I would need a 90 on the Final to pass but the chances of doing so were SLIM.  After a few study groups and a ton of peoples help later, I made a 96 on my Final.  So I have one more semester to pass or make it through...then I can graduate in May.  The hardest part is still to come (NCLEX) but I believe I can be ready to do my best. Lord help me make it!

To be or not to be, that IS the question...

Last Wednesday I took my last unit test which I needed to make a 90 on to be sitting confortable for the final (meaning I would need to make a 85 on that to pass).  So I get my test back in class after feeling really good about how I did, only to find out I made a 76.  I was crushed at this point. Pretty much gave up my whole education motivation right there.  That's it, I'm done. No more Nursing for me.  I am a failure.  Of course we had to go talk to our instructors if we were at a certain grade point average before taking the final. I explained to her that I knew I needed a 90 on my final to pass and that it was highly unlikely.  She said she hoped I could make it. HA! Thanks for the confidence.  I found out I am not the one that has it the worst in the class so I decide to do what I can to get a 90.  So next Weds final determines if it's meant to be or not. Can't believe it's ending like this.  ONE semester from graduation.

To be or not to be?

So here I am in the second to last semester of Nursing school.  Scared out of my freakin mind.  So far in to fail, to close to graduation to give up.  So first test, passed. Second test, failed. Third test, failed.  Therefore, I have decided to quit my job and put in 300 percent of my time to try to make it through.  But I do have to question, am I supposed to be a RN? If so why am I struggling so much.  I am still waiting for an Ahhhhh haaaahhhhh moment.  Is it ever going to come?  If so, it needs to hurry.  I don't know if my grades will let me hang on long enough for my brain to catch on.  If I do graduate, and get my license, I honestly don't know what I will do!

Why is it called summer BREAK when it's not....

So even though I am out for the summer I still have tons of work to do before my Psych rotation in July.  Reading chapters, doing remediation, and then doing more studying to prepare for my class. Guess what...I haven't started yet.  It is so hard to continue working my butt off, not having a break, not seeing family, etc.  Please GOD help me get motivated for another year of this!

So my nails are gone....

After a weekend of staying at the new house with Preston, I realized I wasted valuable time.  Now I am cramming about 6 weeks worth of material into my brain in one night to pass a test for tomorrow.  You would have thought I would learn by now but unfortunately, time is never on my side.  I always think I have more than I do.  When I get into studying I realize I should have started 10 years ago.  It's a double edge sword, go insane studying all the time, or catch a break when you can and stress in the end.  Therefore, nails have been taking the stress all night tonight...Bad habit I need to break!

One semester in....

So here is the deal.  I got into Nursing school last august.  Little did I know it would be this taxing on the brain.  not only am I learning a new language (business to medical) but I am learning how to take care of people.  I mean actually TAKE care of them.  it is a little nerve wrecking to know that after 10 years in the corporate world i am going to have to go to a hospital after 5 semesters and have someones life depend on my actions.  Now that I am in my second semester, it is getting a little more involved.  Yesterday we learned how to do Foley Catheters.  Can I just say that I am a little nervous about the first time I get to do one.  It's not hard but I feel my anxiety rushing into my hands when we learn new skills.  Lord help me.